Thursday, November 18, 2010

this pattern is this (a-dolf)

i watch the tv static for a pattern. an answer to my problems.
slowly a face emerges out of the scrambling dots and horrid screeching.

hitler


gimme a CUT

cornelius is here

David: Cornelius, are you there?

no answer

David: Who would ever read this?
Cornelius: I’m not there.
Adelle Kuntz: I just noticed some video you made is tagged as a video of me. Can you un-tag me because I can't find a way to delete it from my page?
David: Okay, but you'll still be tagged in spirit... Oh, yeah, and you're name's still in it lol :)
Adelle Kuntz: Ha! I didn't even realize I was mentioned. Never watched past the first min. lol.
David: Yeah, not many people ever watch/listen to/read the things I create anyway.
Sherry Nelson: Well as long as you keep thinking that's a talent, I don't see why you're complaining. :)
David: I love you more :D
NO LETTER AT THIS TIME

attached is this book

dear sherry,
    attached is this book

dear sherry,
    i don’t feel i owe you any apology.

dear sherry,
    i’m sorry for this book.

dear alice,
    i’m sorry i fucked you.

i fucked up

but then i fucked her.

    the identity shifted.
       
        and i became what i always was.

we’re all inflated by time and the time we realize that S/HE is come is the time that we will finally be able to die. for 21 years i have been trying to die with no success. some people were just meant to be dying for eternity and never actually reach their goal of the afterlife or whatever may be beyond.

ETERNAL DEATH

THROUGH

LIVING

she was in my hands, my face, my penis. i had burned her kiss into my breath and snorted her ashes into my lungs, forever cursing myself to speak about her this way.

    but god help me if S/HE ever reads this for then I am doomed.
    maybe.
    or she will dismiss me like she always has done.

“i just wanted to have sex with you.”

    then david should never have fallen in love.


FAIL

failure is like being eunuchified repeatedly, ad nauseum, until my face becomes a vagina. then i am forced to have sex with my own amputated genitals. very unpleasant thing, i must say.

“Listen to me, bitch! I’m Charlie Kaufman!”

who is this jacob steep?
    the male part of the nilotic.
that’s all?
    yeah, I guess.
what’s his relationship to alice?
    they were lovers.
oh really?
    mm-hmm.
i think you have your facts mixed up.
    what do you mean?
first off: which one is real, alice or jacob?
    REAL? what?
which one is an ACTUAL person?
   

this is REAL

alice and jacob
sherry and david


what about the nilotic?
    i dunno. he’s just a lonely fucker.



                who is this oscar rosas?

i wanted her in my backpack

there she was, lying on the couch, dozing like a late-nite college student. i looked at her over my shoulder as danny and i were about to leave the digital garage at flashpoinT.

    she’s cute, i remember saying.
    yeah, danny replied, why don’t you go molest her?
    do you know what her name is?
    sherry, i think.

i wanted her in my backpack.


significance equals what?
THIS DVD WAS PURPOSELY BURNED WITH BAD SECTORS

have we ever died?

CUT